A Mad Max World
Remember when those government ads had Sid Seagull dancing to get us to slip into long sleeves, slop on the sunscreen and slap on a hat to protect us from the sun, protect us from skin cancer? That was when we went outside. We don´t do that anymore. The sun now is shrouded in a veil of grey, a membrane stretching to a horizon licked by flames that swallow both eucalypt and rain forest, belching the stench of burnt Koala fur and paw pads, foreseeing a Mad Max world fallen prey to the vagaries of this sunburnt land. Inside, the tv goes blank and the fridge stops humming. There are no government ads anymore.

Don't Look Back
This isn’t the first time I’ve stood in a ditch, stick in hand, poking a dead body. But it’s never been a human one before.
    “How did he get there?” my sister whispers, unable to suppress a hint of excitement.
    “Haven’t the foggiest” I reply truthfully, as I liberate him of his velvet jacket and slip it on over my tattered hoody.
    We go back to walking in silence, each step taking us further from home. Steady rain sets in.
    “Poor fella’s gonna get soaked” my sister bemoans.
    I turn to her, a glint in my eye. “He needs a good wash.”
    She frowns, but doesn’t say anything. We keep moving, leaving behind our home, our past, our pain. Crimson specks drip off my new jacket and stain the route along which we’ll never return.

Push
Let us discuss the fly who drifted into the work fridge and landed on her leftovers – the Christmas Lunch sandwich with the “herby pork stuffing” – and vomited a mixture of spit and stomach acid right there. Let us think about her biting and swallowing the sandwich and – around 72 hours later – vomiting her own mixture of spit and stomach acid right there, near the work fridge. Let’s see her going home and next morning texting her boss: “Apologies – I’m sick” again and her boss texting back “Hope you feel OK soon” again. Let’s imagine her lying there, sick, as she starts to think and decides, firmly, that she will quit that boring job with the nice boss. Let us think about the fly, the same fly, gliding into her flat and resting on her pillow. Let us discuss what a difference it made. How small and huge that was.

Lunch At Luigi's
At home she is meticulous. She retreats into the alignment of cutlery. The squaring of corners. Clean follows dirty as day follows night. Whatever they do in the bedroom thrums to a fast-forward image of fresh sheets.

At work there are crumb armies in her keyboard. Collaged notes, tissue tails, and sweet wrappers. Mugs with strange countries tea-stained inside. Liquorice twists of connectors and cables.

When her husband of 15 years says, 'I hope you behaved today', he means, 'Did you stay in your shell? Did you make yourself microscopic?'

And she says, 'Yes.' Because this is mostly true. But lately, she’s been counting backwards from death. Being the first voice in the room at meetings. And today, Karen, from the desk opposite, casually said, "You coming, then?" Lunch at Luigi’s. Spectacular and plain.

When he asks, she crinkles the café’s printed napkin, messy and safe in her pocket.

Time Will Say Nothing But I Told You So
It was a mistake to meet you in the woods after school, linger long after we both should have left, feel your lips against mine, tasting of cherries, soft like bruised fruit, my hands tracing the contours of your landscape, so familiar, so strange, so often, then afterwards take the shame of us home, press you between pages of my diary, safe and unrequited, then not to stem the rumours, careless whispers along hushed corridors that shadowed you and distanced me as I saw less and less of you and when I did your eyes were haunted and your locker was graffited and the cuts on your arms were a language I couldn’t read and your parents were called in by the Headmistress and I should have told them about the woods and the lake where we’d swum but I thought if you were gone, I wouldn’t miss you.

My daughter made me a beaded bracelet
It breaks while I'm waiting near the school gates. Dropping to my knees, as if to pray, I scrape my fingertips over the dusty gravel and pick the beads up one by one. Other things I find there; a penny, a curled leaf, a shard of glass and a single clover clinging on by loose, fragile roots.
    'Did you hear me?'
    I look up at the woman. The sun haloing behind her head makes her the image of something ethereal. She has a son in the year below my daughter but I've forgotten his name. I want to remember, because it's important now, but I can't.
    'The shooter is dead,' she says, 'they'll be getting the children out soon.' 
    Before rising, I notice a gold bead hiding near her feet. I reach for it and close my fist tight around it.

Booted
When is one boot without the other? Pining at night for its symmetrical opposite, ‘til light spits through eyelets, finds a dry tongue unnaturally folded. When does one boot glide through a window to land pointing skywards? When will the man in the barn lift his head from the bale, contemplate his feet, one sock stiff and muddied?
    A boot flies with some grace when it’s hollow, his wife has discovered. Let him bed with the chickens. Let him limp moss-eyed into the yard seeking the partner boot. Let him recollect its rude removal in the blood-cold kitchen, where he made a grab, c’mere mi beauty, his covert winnings tumbling from the sweaty stowage of that upturned hoof. Let him remember her words: one more time, Zachary. His vow: one last win to fix everything.
    From the house, the smell and crackle of frying. Of unlaced leather. Of never again.

Let Them Eat Cake
½ pound butter
½ pound sugar
4 apples

She hands her son the note. She clicks open her change purse and empties it on the table: 8 quarters, 12 dimes and 4 nickels.

She takes the note back and carefully rewrites.
¼ pound butter
¼ pound sugar
2 apples

He returns with the butter and sugar, but only one apple. Her face clouds briefly then she sets to work.

The aroma of warm butter awakens his hunger. She distracts him with her movements, humming along with the radio as she peels and slices and stirs.

For lunch she makes him two mayonnaise sandwiches. He wants more but only two slices remain.

The bell rings. She pulls her creation out of the oven, gingerly, as if it were made of porcelain.

Then she sets it down before him and hands him a fork.

Saturday noon. Fine rain.
Saturday noon. Fine rain. 
The disorderly melody of the roaster. A waiter on the lookout. 
Takes his place between the zinc and the toilet.
The delivery boy slips and drops his cargo which opens at the boss’s feet.
Yellow chicken, fried potatoes. No, maybe later.
Three guys load up while they moan. A fourth joins them. Silence. Shards of laughter.
The rattling of a crate, a plate that breaks, the old lady coughs (it is often these days).
She thinks, “It’s not the surplus that overflows, it’s the absence that grows.” A square wheel. Her life. A life.
Loneliness is a funny idea. Caramel apple tart. No coffee.
The pavement is overrun with the heels of the kids of the school opposite. A chill wind enters without asking. Soon the skull is empty. The creaking of a hinge that lingers, then dies, easy.
The wind said nothing.
It left again.

Daisies
Dad is snoring amongst the daisies, hat over his face, belly peeking out over his shorts. Mum looks at him with a mix of disappointment and relief that she often uses on me.
 
Seeing me fumbling with my daisy chain, she clasps her cigarette between her lips, clicks her fingers and holds out her hands. Then I marvel at how quickly she splits the stalks with her blood-red nails, and how she can hold the cigarette between two fingers and thread flowers together at the same time.
 
After a while, she exhales a long stream of smoke, which floats down and settles lightly around my throat. Looking down, I find it’s not smoke but daisies which are so feathery against my skin, and let out a long breath too, both relieved and disappointed it’s finished. 

Mum nods and flicks the ash off her cigarette onto Dad’s belly. He doesn’t notice.